Another Open Letter


I told myself I wouldn’t think these thoughts.  I definitely never thought I would be writing them down and putting it out there for you and the world to read.  I said, “I am strong, I don’t need this.  I can rebuild my life the way it was before you came into it.”

But I can’t.

I sit here on a Sunday night thinking of what could have been.  I am very aware that we made the right decision.  No one wants to drag out something that is over.  I get that. 

But I miss you.

I keep thinking of the good times, and yes dammit I am thinking of the hard times too.  We had both.  Ups and downs, laughs, cries, I didn’t realize how much I needed you until you were gone.

Now with this Government shutdown thing I feel like it is a stark reminder of how you aren’t here. 

We shut down.

I guess it really doesn’t matter now.  It is over. 

I know that.  I just wanted YOU to know, that I appreciate the time we had and I am glad we had it. 

At the end of the day, I guess I just don’t know how to say Good Bye.


Damn you Vince Gilligan.  Can’t we…  I mean is there any way…

No.  I know, there isn’t any way. 

Dammit Jesse don’t look at me that way. 



I will remember you at your happiest…


And Walt, oh dear Walt…  I don’t even have the words.



I am arranging my bacon into a sad face this Sunday.  😦  Wearing my purple pajamas wandering around, trying to avoid AMC, because Low Winter Sun is just your sloppy seconds and we all know it.  I can’t think of another show right now.  It is just too painful.

I am just going to chose to believe that you are doing well. That you all are.



I see I am not alone…


One day, a long long time from now, I might start another show.  But it won’t be the same.  It will never be the same.  You have ruined me for all other TV shows.  I hope your happy, TV WRECKER! 

Sorry, I am just upset.  Until then, I will stalk you on the internet until I feel gross about myself. 



I will move on. 

One Day.


As Always,


Woman on Pause. 


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All of the things.

First and foremost, HAPPY 3 DAY WEEKEND!  I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.  I know that this weekend marks the end of the summer, but it is 95 degrees today and I am thinking we may have a few more weeks (months) of the warmness.

Oh and COLLEGE FOOTBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (Go Dawgs!!!!!!)

This is me, all day long.  Bring on all the honey baked hams, and constant dessert eating!!

(Note:  It got down to 69 here the other day and as I walked my youngest to the bus stop half the kids had coats on.  The high was 89.  I swear I was probably way more annoyed than I should be but REALLY?!?!?)

Anywho, enjoy the weekend winter aka Halloween, Thanksgiving or as I like to call it Bingegiving, and Christmas are right around the corner.

Also, this lovely lady nominated for an award today!

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I have found such wonderful people since I started posting again.  Seriously.  These are funny, witty, smart, kick ass people.  The above is no different.  LOVE LOVE LOVE.  You should check her out.

I am not great at the award thing (SUCH a blogger thing to say)  but I wanted to bring attention to her, because she is friggin awesome.  Click her, like her, follow her, and thank me later.

I am thinking about doing an introduction blog with all my new people, but not sure how people like that.  I will take a poll.  Later, because I procrastinate and to do any different I may melt or turn into dust, or grow a 3rd arm or something.

Things I think you should see.

(Don’t hate me for that one)

Dangit Jesse….



Shut the front door and the damned back door.  Rock-a-fire whathappenedtoyou??  Do you Mitzi Mozarella.

This is the MGMT version.  This may have broken the space–time continuum.


And remember folks.  We all love our electronics, but let’s not become This damned bad.

As Always,

Woman on Pause



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What the Hell Happened??

I am minding my own business, watching Breaking Bad, because it is awesome and if you aren’t watching it, you should.  I did a post recently about Lost and how I avoided it for years because everyone loved it.

Didn’t make that mistake with BB. Best damned show I have seen in a while.  Bump all that noise.  Best written show I have seen in a long damned time.


Remember when TV was only Full House, Blossom, Eight is Enough, That horrible Dinosaur show I can’t remember its name.  Etc. Etc.

Now, that being said, the onset of reality TV depending on what camp you reside in, hasn’t exactly heightened TV watching.  I mean I stuck with Real Housewives of OC because it was awesome at first and it was like watching a very slow, very stiff faced train wreck.

Note:  I can’t watch it anymore, it is stupid.  STUPID.

That being said, networks like AMC have been bringing the Goods.  I am a fan of Mad Men.  Even though, they need to wrap that shit up.  I am kinda getting over it.  Don, find yourself and do something with it or GTFO.  I say that, and then the new season will start and I will fangirl all over again.

I really don’t watch a lot of TV.  You wouldn’t know it with this post, and posts from the past, but it is about 5% of my time.

But when I DO sit down to watch it, it better be good.

Or, I will leave on Diner’s Drive-In’s and Drives while I am cleaning or zoning out totally.  Normally these are days my hip is such a bitch I can’t even follow a decent plot.



I digress.  This entire post was supposed to be about how my Facebook literally blew up about Miley Cyrus doing whatever it was that she was doing, and how absolutely horrible it was.

It wasn’t instantly available, (WTF internet) so I had to wait until today to witness the carnage.

But what is even ODDER is how I now see people getting up in arms over one position or the other.

Oh, it isn’t that big of a deal.
Oh, she is the antichrist.
Oh, her butt is a raw chicken

I am talking heated heated debates.  People getting MAD.

Then, people getting mad that people are talking about Miley’s chicken ass instead of Syria.


Hey, I know what happened in Syria.  I may not be discussing it on Facebook, but at the same time I am not posting rants on my feed about Miley’s chicken ass.

The world is coming to an end.  And if that is the case, I must leave you with this.  Because I saw it, and now I can’t unsee it.  And now you can’t either.

5 days.


As Always,

Woman on Pause



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Speaking of Lost…

*Another post that WordPress ate.  Thank goodness I saved it.  GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR….

I realize I am about nine to four years late to this discussion, but I just finished Lost on Netflix.


Lost to me, was one of those shows that you couldn’t pay me to watch.  Like Heroes.  Which I still refuse to watch, but alas, as I look over my shoulder, there it is in my Netflix que.  I am a brat like that.  Tell me it is great, pushaw, I will not watch what EVERYONE is watching.

You will find me over at the Indie Channel, because I am awesome like that.

(No I am not btw, just a brat)


Speaking of spoilers, while I appreciate this warning, if a show is this old, how long do you have to shield people from opinions, etc?  Is there a time frame on this?

I don’t even know if this will have spoilers, I just can’t be bothered to worry about it so the warning remains.

I really loved Lost.


As much as it pains me to say, I thought this show was well written, and I got hooked.  My stepson was watching it, and I was all, “Pushaw pushaw.”  He said, “Just watch one episode.”

Bam.  Hooked.

Six seasons, with around fifteen or more episodes per season, finished just on Monday.

I cried.

I tend to cry at the last episodes of shows.  I am not sure why.  I am assuming the same reason I can cry at a Publix commercial or a Hallmark commercial.

I even refuse to watch movies that MIGHT make me cry.

Marley and Me.  Hell no
In her Shoes.  Nuh uh.
Any movie with soft music in the trailer. NOPE

I cry at most series finales except Seinfeld, I mean I loved that show but what a stinker of a finale.  I was happy to cry at the end of Lost and put it away and enjoy the fact that I FINISHED!!


Wait, Lost I’m gonna let you finish, but Newhart had the best season finale of all time.
(I will be so impressed if anyone remembers this.)


Point being, it was really a great show.  And I am not sure if I would have followed it when it aired.  I hate commercials.  And you can binge watch any show you like on Netflix.  (That is with the exception of Mad Men and Breaking Bad.  I will do commercials for these.  That’s about it)


I do not recommend binge watching unless you have a day or four hundred to sit down and just get flat out addicted to the characters, story line, & ending.

Then the inevitable feeling of confusion once a show ends.

“What am I going to do now? All these other shows suck.  I want more of the one I just watched 578 episodes of.”

It is irrational, but that is how I felt.

Either way, if you haven’t seen it I recommend it.  But hang in there on Season 5. It drags.  Quite a bit.  I had to pass the hubs, because he lost interest and I was BOUND and determined to FINISH it.  And Finish it I did.

*Sniff Sniff*

I even had a dream about the black smoke monster.

That is how invested I was.

Any shows anyone can recommend for me to become addicted to next?  I am caught up on Mad Men, Breaking Bad, and Orange is the New Black (Fabulous show btw).

Any thoughts? We can talk about the ending of Lost because I gave that warning up there.

As Always,

Woman on Pause

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