This week marks the one year anniversary of me leaving my job/career to stay at home. I can’t believe it has been a year. I thought time flew by fast before because the nature of my job is time structured. First of the month there were certain tasks as were the 15th then month end.
Time just goes by really fast regardless.
I needed this time away from my job. For several reasons. I never really took a vacation. Maybe two in 15 years. I craved knowing what not working felt like. I never had that feeling in my adult life.
I needed to know that I like to work. When you have always worked and are expected to work you start to wonder if it is even something you want to do. Whether it is working or the career you have chose.
Believe it or not. I do like to work. I have a renewed sense of purpose and look forward to getting back to school to finish my degree.
(Note. I do not look forward to GOING to school. I hate school. But it has to be done.)
Things I miss:
- Interaction with adults. Adult conversation. Inappropriate humor.
- Mocha Lattes
- Feeling accomplished
- Feeling I contribute financially <—- This is a big one. More so than I thought it would be.
Things I don’t miss:
- Office politics. (What did that bitch say to my boss??? Oh hell no….)
- Work stress
- Missing out on time with my kids/class visits/holiday parties/award ceremonies/ etc.
There have been highs and lows to this major change in my life. But more highs than lows. I always wondered if I would be the kind of person to want to stay at home. I am not. I will enjoy it now, but am eager to get back to it.
Which hopefully will be by the end of Summer. While I loathe the thought of taking classes again I know it is just a step towards building my career and having professional satisfaction.
That being said, how employers will view my employment gap is the scariest part of all of this.
I hear that is a big no-no.
The journey continues…
Woman on Pause